The Cyberlife

2015, Thank You

So! Better late than never, they say. So let me be late and thank 2015 for the bad and the good. Well, just for the good, for talking about the bad would take forever, and would be a bit pointless, I think. If you don’t know, I’m struggling with manic depression. As a result there are times when I neither write, nor do anything, truly. But as I’m here today, willed into life by friends, I figured I’ll thank for the good stuff, for there was good stuff!

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First of all, my favorite last year crafts. In the pictures, currently, only the second row middle is sold, to a Boss out there, I hope you’re kicking ass wearing these! Anyways, let’s start from the start. I waited forever for a chance to order some bat spacers-pendants, and those cabochons. And when I received them, I found myself unsure what to do with the beauties. In the end, I painted a lovingly smiling skull that I called Beloved, for it might as well be a lover immortal. Get it? Also, it’s not related to Skulduggery Pleasant on purpose, at that moment I didn’t yet know of such a fantastic character. Next, top in second row is a bracelet called Alice Hearts, my tribute to Alice in Wonderland. Always wanted to make one of those. Then there’s Saints Row tribute, one of my all time favorite games. I just had to give it its due therefor. And the last is Midas Gold earrings, all set in gold colors. To be honest, when I was making them, I was wondering if Varric (Dragon Age) wouldn’t be willing to get a pair (matching his own chain) for Bianca. The rest can be found [here]

And don’t you get me wrong. This year I have made many beautiful things. I sold a lot of them too, and people gave me kind reviews for each one. It was one of the most artistically rich and muse smile filled years for me. May this year be no less in this department.2_paintings

Starting with arts, let’s continue to where I started in the first place. I painted a great ton this year. I learned a lot about painting too. And putting together this little collage taught me I draw extremely similar faces, so I guess I have plenty to improve yet.  Anyway, there’s my own characters there, there’s Grav3yardgirl, Floki from Vikings, a comic book version of me, and quite a few postcards. I learned I loved making those, for I work best when I see full picture at once. I also just now realized I didn’t enter Vikings as my top hit of 2015, so letting you know right now – wow, loved it, wow! The rest of the paintings are [here]3_bestmoments

There were a lot of small moments that got to me too, although for the lack of pictures, some couldn’t end up in here. In spring I saw a woodpecker peck wood. I saw a ton of squirrels playing about. In summer my friends took me out to watch Inside Out and gave me a haircut upgrade, a very nice bleached undercut. We played Cards Against Humanity and had a blast therefor. And while my bookshelves were broken apart: this year was the year we put on a metal brace on it, and now it holds! I got a ton of presents for birthday, so many postcards from all over the world, so many tea packets, sweets, and kind words, I never ever got this much before. One of the many top hits is that Moriarty tie you see in one of the pictures. Loved how the envelope said “man’s tie” and the postcard pointed out Tarquin Blackwood was a chic guy, so I should be too.

Then there’s those moments I couldn’t mention, forgot, or just had no pictures of. Like getting review requests from publishers (yes, that equals free books). Authors contacting me, just to talk, or even them leaving me a comment or two somewhere. I’ve received a phone just because, had a pleasure of trying a lot of different energy drinks, including Monster: The Doctor, which is currently my favorite Monster flavor. Then there were other wins, like Grav3yardGirl liking and reblogging my painting of hers [here], Mortisia reblogging some of my stuff, Katers17, now known as KateInRealLife replying me to actually all of my messages. I re-opened my personal art Facebook Page and became part of Crowley Emporium project for crafts and jewelry, made by me and two of my friends.

And best of all, I realized what a bunch of amazing friends I have. Some found me brooding over the darkest moments in my life and helped me back up. Others just got there for a word or two, or an exchange of music that they heard and “thought of me”. I guess in this department I’m just lucky like that. I’ve people who go an extra mile to help if they’re means to do so. I hope they know that I love them all. 4_books

Then, as this blog demands, there’s the book wins. I admit, this year was indeed unyielding in time and will to read, and yet never the less I have something to rejoice about. For one it’d be me finding myself a new series to read and love, which are Skulduggery Pleasant books by Derek Landy. That skeleton mister just has the most perfect vibe about him. Got a lot of unusual, unique, and otherwise different reads this year too, those being Into the river by Ted Dawe, apparently a banned book following the story of this Maori boy in all-boys boarding school. Yakuza by Gabriel Loidolt, which I’d call “Irezumi” instead, a pretty damn nice book, very short, with very slight Murakami vibe to it. Very slight, mostly by the whole go-around. The Radleys by Matt Haig was a serious surprise. So simple, so mundane, and yet not at all, because every seen-a-hundred-times thing that family did was done by vampires, for they’re all vampires! And, of course, my own pick for the book club, Neuromancer by WIlliam Gibson. I wanted to read that one for so long! This blog of mine is mainly meant for horror, suspense, fantasy, and books alike, while I do realize I don’t follow the pattern. That is why I have made the Nosferatu Shelf category, to have those books put in a list. But this year I hope to fill it in a little more with Cyberpunk too. After all, we do await Cyberpunk 2077, don’t we?5_games

Speaking of games, here’s my nine hits. They’re not the releases of 2015 per se, but something I discovered, got to the end of, and loved last year. First was definitely Bastion. It somehow reminded me I like games, and that I should actually finish them now and then, and not just spend hundreds of hours doing anything but main quests, as so many games these days allow you to. While not the second one, still, Transistor, being a creation of same developers, is a beauty to behold. Mind you, not for the weak of mind. It’s heart-breaking at more than one point.

Saints Row was in my inventory forever, and so one day I got around to playing it, on co-op non the less. Can’t play first one, second one gives me motion sickness, so I started at the third one and merely read the wiki’s for the first two. Must say, there’s rare a game that makes me so happy inside as these games do. Definitely my favorite co-op of all times, and probably my favorite gangster games too.

Eye Divine Cybermancy fits the theme of me seeking out Cyberpunk stuff. My friend wanted a first person shooter we could play together and have fun doing so (some fps co-ops are lame, just that). She spoke of Cybermancy and I just thought I’ll go see how much is it on Steam, since it was Summer Sale and there it was, for 2.49eur. We took it and we had  a blast.

Shipwrecked is in a sense merely a DLC for Don’t Starve, but there it is. I got it, I loved it, can’t wait for it to become part of Don’t Starve Together. By the way, one of the highlights was getting that game free for myself and my friend, since they took me into the beta testing group!

Payday 2 was a nice surprise, I’m still playing it and loving it. Satisfies a whole different need of bold nihilistic sense of freedom and courage (not bravado). Wicked jokes, fun characters, and caring Developers just make my dark little heart happy.

Dragon Age Inquisition… Ah well, I don’t even have DLC’s yet, got it for my b-day in 2014, still playing, still loving, still happy to see Dorian throw a fit over lack of books in my library…

The Wolf Among Us was a discovery of the year, I believe. I really disliked the graphics from what I saw when my friends played it. But then I watched Drive with Ryan Gosling and that vibe got me. Now I can say it’s an amazing game and I am extremely sad there’s no more of it. I guess I’ll just have to indulge in the comics…

And, of course The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt. Unlike some, I’ve no disappointments to express over the length of it. Unlike many, I didn’t grind, because I explored and leveled up naturally doing so, by sheer need to beat off a Leshen off a chest I wanted. The only disappointment I did get was the shortness of the Hearts of Stone. Truth is, CDPR gave such ‘expansion packs’ free back in the day, audio and all, free for all with a registered game. The quality and length seemed quite alike to me, so I’m glad I got it free as a gift, for I’d be a lot more disappointed if I paid 10 bux for it! Other than that – yes, it’s very good!

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And the last are the things I watched. First of all, let me just mention Vikings. Loved it so very much, it was a far better season than the previous one, and the music is just mad good. Truly a blasphemy that I forgot to include it here. And I guess I can also add I loved American Horror Story: Hotel a lot too, although I haven’t finished it yet!

Let’s start with the movies now then. First is the Legend, a story of brother Krays. Strange in so many senses it was a perfect little fun-drama-bang piece after such disappointment as Black Mass was. I’m a bit sad I’ve no books on these guys, but I’ll have to fix that I guess! Any publishing houses who want to provide me with those?

I somehow rediscovered Dracula (1931) [here], and crafted my four favorite pairs of black and white gothic earrings. For once I appreciated how beautiful this movie is, and what a wonderful actor Bela Lugosi was.

Mr Holmes was a happy little piece for me too. I’m a great fan of Sherlock, and Sir Ian just fills in those shoes so well! It’s just great, go watch it.

Drive and Gangster Squad were on my Ryan Gosling marathon that I required to have all of a sudden. Now I can say I really enjoy that actor and the often superbly weird things he stars in. Gangster Squad is full of those good goofy, naughty, and otherwise good jokes you might also find in Saints Row. And Drive is just an amazing original movie. Never have I watched anything like this, but I do hope to watch something like this again, someday. When first 5 minutes you spend staring at a character who doesn’t even say a word (not a mute tho), and your face is glued to a screen in suspense…

I watched quite a few series too. Orange is the new Black got me by a mention in Supernatural. Was the last drop, more or less. It’s good in it’s own way, really. Mad men was more or less an old recommendation. Was mentioned in Orange is the new Black, so of course it was a natural chain… Banzai was a Lithuanian show, six episodes total, of these two Lithuanian men, educated people with sense of humor, traveling. This year they went for Japan. One of them, being tall and big man, had the funniest troubles concerning shoes! And the one zombie show I liked: In The Flesh. I liked the different approach to it, to zombies. I liked the Englishness of it all. I loved the strange-fam thing of “let’s pretend there’s nothing wrong”, and misleading prophecies everywhere. And I loved how protagonist was gay and no one bat an eye at it.

So all in all, as you see, I had a rich year spiritually, if I may say so. And I do believe many things I didn’t mention here for I merely forgot about it all, having so much. Those big and small things don’t let me say it was a bad year. No, it wasn’t. It just wasn’t good either. But that’s not a bad thing.

Stay happy and survive. 

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[Games] Don’t Starve: Shipwrecked

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I must say, I was never a fan of Robinson Crusoe, but I did enjoy Assassin’s Creed: Black Flag and the blue waters washing over gold sands. And I do love Don’t Starve, especially since the new multiplayer/co-op was presented to it (back in the day I received a beta-testing copy, woopee for me), so when chance came to get this DLC or Expansion pack, whatever it is, I went for it. And I was not disappointed. So here it is. Shipwrecked.

The game is “early access” since a lot of things are still being done and made. It’s not yet available for the Don’t Starve Together either, but that’s just a chance for you to get around and learn things, to avoid making a fool of yourself when playing with friends (admit it, some are unforgiving).

So, first thing you notice there is rubble around you. You, literally, shipwrecked. There’s boat pieces and junk, on a beach, with little heaps of sand for digging, pretty shells buried  in it, palm trees and some other kinds, bamboo, tangly somethings, snakes, crabs, dogfishes, seaweeds, waves AND tides, so don’t do the mistake I have made by putting my bonfire on the very edge of the shore. There goes the mood!

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I got around a bit, made myself an axe, landed a tree or four, and then I noticed it. A machete. Took me no time (well, a bit of time) to realize this is not a sword for fighting (while as effective as an axe, if not better), but rather a tool to get bamboo and those tangly somethings. The two main pieces for a decent raft, which will be your main way of getting around and even collecting things.

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First the fear had the better of me. I picked some weeds, murdered a jellyfish or five and ate them raw, found another poor soul wrecked, picked up the floating spear gun, killed a dogfish, which I will never willingly do again, it was so sad! Well, I might do it again if I need it for something other than food, but food has alternatives, like coconuts, seaweed, barnacles, sweet potatoes, and probably other things I have not found yet. Then I saw the waves… They move and look all menacing, coming at ya (actually just going in their own pattern). Images of another wreckage and end of the game filled my head. But then I did hit one and… Well, I got wet, I’ll tell you that. But that was about that. Boat wears itself up eitherway, so I’m not sure how much damage did it cause, but it definitely is survivable. And even more so, one can navigate through them easily, which I later did.

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I swam across it to find trees and things growing in the shallow water. You can chop some wood directly off your carriage. Then I found a coral reef, which looked pretty, but I couldn’t figure out how to get some coral, probably needed pickaxe, which at the moment I didn’t have. And finally I landed on an island black… Magma covered place, with a thick forest deeper in. Here I decided to settle, since my need for a shovel grew and grew. Found some pigs, a bit hairy, a bit dirty. Found a dead man with two bottles. One had a note in it, and what do you think? Treasure map. I admit, I didn’t yet get around of digging it out, but I intend to. Going further, I came into some snakes and then a monkey just WHOOSHED past me and started killing it! And then more monkeys came and started killing more snakes! Then they followed me home and stole everything dropped on the floor… Otherwise they’re friendly. But finding food around them is tough.

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So all in all, some things are the same, so don’t worry. There’s still altars to revive yourself, there’s still a need to find a good spot for a permanent camp. Simply instead of invading swamps and going from one type of forest to a different type of forest, you get to explore islands and ocean. So far I give it 4/5, just cuz I really want to play it with my friend instead of going about alone. Also if there’s a spellunker thing in this too – might be even harder to find one.

This post will be updated. Original date is 2015-12-05 [yy-mm-dd]

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Hour of the Wolf and The Howler

Little did I know about this game, The Howler: The Game of Touch and Scream, but now I do. The game is based on / inspired by Lithuanian Steampunk book “Hour of the Wolf” by Andrius B. Tapinas. The book is translated into English and can be obtained via Amazon, and you can get informed about it on Goodreads too. It is a saga, but I know nothing on whether there’ll be more games, yet what’s important right about now, is that this game on Steam currently costs only 0,19 euro cents!

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The Saints Row : Jewelry

Saints_Row_IV_promo_image_-_crossing_the_delawareI’m an addict, I admit. I replayed the third game twice, and started a third row around with a different friend. I didn’t play the second one, because I have extreme motion sickness and that game is uncontrollable in the worst sense, but I watched it played on YouTube. I have finished the fourth game once, and began a second round around with the same friend, she’s very patient with me. I don’t yet have other games, but if luck’ll be on my side – there’ll be some good Steam Sales eventually.

The game is definitely a masterpiece of satire, irony, sarcasm, and a few other things I can’t even spell. It mocks many pop-culture things, some – obviously, others – via references that only some will notice. And it just makes me feel so happy inside. The boss? The boss you control is a damn leader. You’re never too small for him to come to your rescue personally. He’s not above getting lip from you. And absolutely up for any mad adventure. And I say “he” because I play a male character as a preference, but you can choose your gender, your race, your built, your character even. You can be a chubby cracker, or a lady with literal balls, and it’s GREAT.

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My addictions often seep into Outernet or Afterlife too. I had a Dandy brooch from AC: Black Flag multiplayer character that I made for myself, and thus Fleur De Lis is not a strange symbol to me (I have a conspiracy theory that Boss of Saints is a descendant from that particular Dandy man), so now I’m indulging in the purple shades my good friend Medeia has once sent me, trying to make a more… Manly shade, like Purple for a brooch background. But until then I do simpler things. Like earrings. And dream of deep purple shirt. Hey, that’d fit Joker too. And yes, if you wonder, I did indeed steal a Temptress and painted it purplish pink in Joker’s colors.

Both pairs are available to buy unless I update this and state otherwise. If you can’t find them on either of my sites: please contact me directly via email jrv.soukyan@gmail.com [Etsy] [Ebay] [CrowleyEmporium] [Tumblr]

P.S. [My Own Home?] is one place to help me out a little. Another is the [donation button] in my profile. And third one is sharing. Trust me, it’s definitely help enough.There’s of course the fourth one, my very favorite: you buying things I have made things are here: [CrowleyEmporium] ; [Ebay] ; [Etsy] – everything’s available unless stated otherwise on Crowley Emporium, it has FULL gallery of things available, unlike Ebay or Etsy

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Painting, Grav3yardgirl

Disclaimer: I watch Grav3yardgirl because she’s different, interesting and just a marvelous spirit. Your excuse that “she’s a beauty guru and I don’t care for make-up” is not valid. She makes plenty of different videos to keep us entertained.

Some time ago she committed to get rid of her statement black hair strands in her blond mop of hair (which is a wonderful mop of hair). She had black in her blonde hair for forever. We made fan art with her blacks, she took pictures with her blacks. Thus no wonder she was stressed out to tears when she finally went there and got rid of the black. And, honestly, I missed her black hair too at first. I kept looking at her and something was amiss. But I know how it is to feel pressure to look this way and not that way, so I didn’t make any comments about it (and you should take example).

Then a couple days ago I felt this urge to watch her old videos. I subscribed to her after watching this video, I remember. But I have seen her before, and I have watched her to this day too. And you know? I think she looks much better without the blacks in her hair. And I hope others see it too.

As for all the memories documented of her with black in her hair, I thought I’ll be among those who will now stand firm with her and document her by painting her without the black in her hair. Thing is, I’m a bit stupid, so I forgot to take step-by-step of this drawing (I will try to do this next time), so instead here I offer you how I work in a picture of my OC : The Engineer, and then we move on to the Swamp Queen of ours : Grav3yardgirl

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So, obviously this isn’t Bunny. This is Lailes and he’s all I have to show you the basics of how I start my painting. Bottom layer is any shade of grey you want. I usually take the middle one, the one right in between white and black. On top of it I make a lineart, rough one, just something to remember what’s where. The best way to learn to make these rough and fast, I figured, is to take a picture of someone or your own even, and outline what you need. Shape of the face, nose position, eye position and size, lip position. If there’s good light in the picture, you can outline that too with some dotted line or something. afterwards all layers must come in between these two. Start with the darkest, my advice. If light layers on top – that’s good. But when shadows layer on top… Well, that just doesn’t happen. BUT, as one of my fav artists said in one of the live streams: do what fits you best, there are no rules to define you.

From there just blend things, add lines, etch in hard lines where needs be and soften others. Yes, I draw in grey, I can then concentrate on one thing at a time: Lights and Shadows now, proportions then, sharpness and softness, and lastly – colors.

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This is all I have of Bunny.  Above you see the same process. As you see, sometimes my grey overlaps the background grey and I end up with invisible bits. That’s a mistake – use either a shade lighter or darker, depending on how the light works in your drawing. Since we’re 3D objects – we don’t usually go as flat as the wall to match the shade, that’s all I’m saying. Color would of course render that piece of my mind – pointless. Thus, again: don’t let me stop you, you do you. bunny2

Next step for me is Photoshop. I use Paint Tool Sai for painting and pardon me for saying so, but Photoshop is just NOT meant for painting. IMO if you can make what the epic artists of DA make with Photoshop – you have divine talent or never gave other programs a chance. AGAIN: Find your own way to this. Do try programs. I’m sure a friend, a cousin, a co-worker or just someone – has something you don’t, something you could test out.bunny3And then there’s just the colors left. One layer after another.Take some brown, lessen the opacity of the soft brush, paint the face, change the blending, brush twice (that’s why you need opacity) to deepen the color, trice to work it into a shadow. Then a layer for hair, for the dress, for the eyes, for the lips, for the eyeshadow, for shadows in general. Background is the easy part, employ a lessened opacity soft eraser, find some texture picture (I used my own picture of sky with a cloud, using hues to change it into this teal-ish color), drop it on the drawing, change the blending, erase where it shouldn’t be.

  • Gradient maps are your friends.
  • Selective colors are your best friends.
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[Game] Terraria [1.3]

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The June 30th update on Terraria

First things first. I’m no expert at all. I’m an amateur normal-gamer. BUT. I have 211 hours on Terraria on record on Steam. I, with my friends, have killed probably 95% of all the bosses. Definitely found all the NPC’s, built them homes and defended them from invasions. Neither pirates nor goblins could stand against us. And so while we were playing calmly yesterday, my friend noticed there’s an update news… An update that was half a hour away. And today I can tell you – after Minecraft’s patch “the patch that changed the world” – this is the best thing in these types of games. And let me tell you why…

  1. Auto-Stack. – Yeah, I mean, Quick Stacking is not that hard. But not that fun either. You go from chest to chest, click the button and may your gods have mercy on you if you click Deposit All instead. Fret no longer. You open your inventory and there it is, at the bottom right corner of your, YOUR inventory. No need to open the chest anymore, just auto-stack everything by running PAST the chests. That’s it. That’s just it.
  2. Restock. – So you came back after a gruesome battle with 2 Health Potions left, barely any Mana Potions and so on. You open your chest, that you probably named “Restoration Potions” or something alike and there it is. From 5 to 15 types of potions. Now find the one you want, go on. OR DON’T! Click “Restock” at the corner of the chest (around the area where Quick Stack and Deposit All is) and you’re good to go and fight another flying pair of eyeballs!
  3. Craft directly from the chest. – Oh yes. This is the most important thing. Imagine you want to craft yourself a bunch of things, a whole damn bunch. So you took this and that. You come to the anvil or crafting table, or anything else really and… You forgot to pick up some seeds, or spores, or iron! And surely you had some chain pre-made, why would you waste your good metals? Well, don’t! What we did and what you can do too – we placed all our tables on the floor and propped a bunch of shelves above. Filled them in with chests for materials for crafting and there you have it. Why? Well because now you can craft directly from the chest. You open the chest, stand by the table you require and there, you can craft it!
  4. Put all dem things on the Cloud. – Steam Cloud is a great, great thing. But Terraria wasn’t very friendly with it. A friend of mine played Terraria from her PC and from her Laptop, making her do all sorts of chores for it: transfer character via email / usb drive, make a second character and deposit all every time you log out, just because you don’t know where will you log back in from again. Well, fret no longer. All your maps and characters can now be uploaded to the cloud! You can play from wherever the heck you want!
  5. Teleport to your friend. – How many times you died while digging with your friend, or raiding that damn dungeon? And they had to wait forever till you found your way back, which isn’t always easy, and in hardmode jungle caves – often barely possible. NEWS! A teleportation potion. What you do is you choose a team color, you and your friends, yes, you all can be one team. Then you open the big map, usually key-mapped as letter “M”, and click on their head. Done. You’re reunited and whatever killed you is now regretting it!
  6. New biomes, improved biomes. – that’s just that. New mini biomes, like granite and marble (so far the only ones I found underground), and whole new desert cave systems, they’re more unique, more like snow biome, not just underground biome with sand it in. Plenty of new monster down there too, mind ya…

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So these here are my favorites. But there are many more, such as +800 new items, new events, new NPC’s, new ways the things work (for instance, information equippables can now stay in inventory and work from there, like depth measurer, compass), new places to place things (an extra little inventory for your grappling hook, pet, light source, etc.), new bosses even, and so on. I will provide a link below to where you can see all the updates. And yes, there are some bugs: money don’t stack in a chest (we share money among us), some items annoyingly stack up elsewhere, etc. But I’m sure a hotfix will soon patch things up.

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Cybernatural and Cyberpunk

Soundtrack: Archive – Bullets

I really don’t want this blog to turn into a mere book-blog, so in due time I will correct the categories there on the right. And we’ll talk cyberpunk now. I got the idea since I saw that trailer for Cybernatural (Unfriended), here, have the trailer (the one on imdb is better, but I can’t post it here, so I’ll just give you the link: Cybernatural Trailer).


I do love movies on cyberspace. I guess it makes me feel a little more safe, more real, than movies of the dangers and loves outside of it. Yes, I said it. Dangers AND loves. I’m a little unstable person, thus internet is perfect to keep my mind in tact. Be it a cat video, or an endless tumblr scroll. Some time in all of this, it made me more real here than out there, in the outernet or real life world. Many things no one out here knows and might never know, and yet I am fairly honest in here. Here I can tell you what I keep secret from my irl friends, because here I found more understanding. Thus, only natural that love tragedy in Suicide Room was more real for me than, say, The Fault in Our Stars. I just always lived in fictional worlds. And before you say internet is thus evil, I will just say I’m a reader and I have proof which is all placed right here, in this same blog. Disconnect my internet and I will turn to the books, as I do every morning, for I never turn my computer sooner than noon unless there’s some sort of special situation. Yet, since I am hyperconnected – I don’t have to resort to ONLY the books.
And now, more than ever, we all, bit by bit, are becoming hyperconnected. I’d say “At last! We’re living the Cyberpunk!”, but then I’m reminded of Cyberpunk rules. Dystopia. Kiri says it, if you’re not completely familiar with what Cyberpunk is:

  And does it not yet fit us? We just added the hyperconnection to dystopia, but it was always here, it seems, one way or another. We seem to have always been going to crap. We fight each other, in groups or one-on-one. And what for? Well, hell knows, really. On top of it, we’re very literally ruining the only home we ALL have, our Earth! And yet… We can turn away and look at that beautiful picture of snow-covered spruce in google image search. We can turn the map on and stand staring into Eiffel Tower, all in our dark warm rooms, on our squeaky chairs. We can forget the wars and rather fight our own, make our own history and… If we fail – start again, as a different person. This made me yet again think: so are we saturating our shortened life-span in here? Are we becoming another race then? Say, well, just entertain the thought for a moment, there were elves. They lived for long thousands of years, thus aging slow and taking it slow. We, humans, lived barely to what, a hundred? Thus no longer taking it slow. And then there’s the e-we, e-humans. Some of us live less than a day, less than two minutes, just enough to write a comment. Is that why we saturate all our emotions into those? The raw moment anger, the indescribable joy? What are we even anymore? The cybernation, fighting our wars, living our lives, like gods or schitzophrenics, often having more than one life at once. Or are we maybe also somehow Cybernatural with our ability to turn into beings just like that?

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