So the past week I was busting my ass on work, reading, and <drum rolls> painting. For ten years I fancied myself an artist of this or that sort. Today I realize my painting style is a bit stupid, and in the end I make real childish drawings in general. But I still somehow hope making a living out of it. Why? How? Don’t know. There are worse than me out there who are doing well. And I just thought I deserve some too, yes?
And I did get some. Meaning I painted people I like (as you see they’re not all people, and not all are real people when they are people) and sent it to them. Bunny, aka Grav3yardGirl liked it on Instagram, Reina‘s image was reblogged by SF fan page on Tumblr, Kanadajin3 retweeted hers kindly, and Bree thanked me when doing so. Love these girls, and there’s a few more I must paint too.
What I do is I get into their Instagrams, for these days I feel like people put their images there when they feel their best, and I want to paint what they feel their best, because in my view – they’re great, but from some content these people uploaded, I know they not always feel the same way themselves. I enlarge the picture as much as I can, and just start drawing on a A5 (or is it A6? half of A4) page with a pencil, trying my best to imitate what their beautiful faces look like. As you see I stylize the hair a lot, since I can’t draw hair, and they all have real, like REAL nice hair. So I try doing it justice via what I can do in general. And then I just paint and paint, and paint. I change some things, I change the colors, I get frustrated every time, and then I try to scan it with my piece of trash old scanner. Which leaves me photoshopping the picture into the original color scheme for another half hour or so…
My point is: people work, and people work hard. You see an actor or an entertainer and think “wow, their life is so nice and easy”, but that’s a big fat lie you’re imagining there. And the shit these people cope with I don’t even want to imagine. So if you sit there, on YouTube, writing a new comment, and have a choice of saying “u ugly af ur teeth lik dis” and saying “u pretty af, love what u do” – think of which one of these you’d like to hear, and say the one. Just a drop of kindness goes a very long way.
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